I’ve been struggling to talk about my hair loss in a blog post.
Over the past 6 months, I’ve instead chose to document my thoughts on Instagram.
Here are those updates:
September 20, 2019
I’m losing my hair…. and it’s not the first time.
I was bald at the age of 12. Alopecia. My hair eventually grew back but I was told that it would fall out again in my 30s. They don’t know why. It’s just what tends to happen.
So here I am, 2 weeks from my 30th birthday and my hair is falling out.
I have a lot of feelings to process. I know it’s not related to what I do as a social media strategist but it’s important for me to share this small slice of real life.
September 27, 2019
FBF this is me back in 2013 at #tomorrowworld
I had no idea that three years later I’d be able to rock my natural hair again.
I also had no idea that I’d lose it another three years after that.
The beautiful thing about this picture is that it reminds me to live in the moment. I wasn’t thinking about what should have been or what could be. I was enjoying what I had right here.
Today’s lesson is to remember to be present in each moment. Hair, no hair, wigs – I’m on a mission to enjoy myself no matter what!
October 19, 2019
When I saw my hair falling out again, I had so many mixed feelings.
1️⃣ Fear: I’ve been down this road before. I lost my hair when I was in middle school and was mistaken for a boy. I didn’t want to go down that road again.
2️⃣ Pride: I’ve been practically BRAGGING since rocking my little fro three years ago. I loved that transition. As someone who previously didn’t have hair at one point, I was pretty freaking proud of what I did have.
3️⃣ Apprehension: I’ve worn weaves/wigs for 10 years. I’m know my way around some hair. But it’s soooo much work and is much more expensive.
4️⃣ Excitement: since I’ve lived most of my adult life with long hair, part of me was excited to return to normal. This is how I see myself. And it’s me in my most comfortable and confident state.
Losing hair is not easy. But I’m so grateful that I know how to manage things. I’m so lucky to have the resources to do so as well. The wig would has upped its game in the past few years and I’m here for it.
I’m forever grateful for the three years I rocking my afro. Nothing can change that.
October 26, 2019
Wig or no wig. I’m still me.
November 9, 2019
How I feel when I’ve got my wig on 🤗
I’m settling back into wig life. Even though it’s been three years since regularly wearing a wig, I feel like things are starting to become part of a routine.
December 7, 2019
One thing meditation and studying my health has brought up is my relationship with alcohol.
Sometimes I’m a fun inebriated person. But lately I’ve just been angry and irritated. Jealous. Mean. And unpleasant to be around.
I’ve also noticed that I tend to turn to a glass of wine when I’m having a stressful day. Which happens often this time a year as it’s so busy with my business.
So I’m taking a break. It’s been two weeks since I’ve had a drink. I’m taking this time to evaluate what role alcohol plays in my life. And I’m taking time to focus on my health, both physically and mentally.
December 24, 2019
Rocking a shorter hairstyle for a bit.
December 31, 2019
I’m not brave.
I’m just a human.
I’m no hero.
I’m just sharing my story.
I’m not scared.
And I shaved my head because I got tired of trying to braid what was there.
This. is. me.
January 18, 2020
A few things I’m working on since the reoccurrence of my #alopecia:
✨Meditation: really helps me stay calm and grounded, especially during my work day
✨Drinking more water: I’ll admit I’m not the best at this. But hydration seems to help literally every ailment out there.
✨Drinking less alcohol: I went about a month with minimal drinking and it was enlightening.
✨Therapy: lots of confidence issues come up with hair loss so I’m working on it with my therapist and my life coach
✨Wigs: Finding the fun in wearing wigs. Obviously my first choice is not to be losing hair but I’m still enjoying the process of wearing a wig. It’s fun to switch it up when I want to.
P.S. I’m loving that my bald spots are on the top of my head. You can’t see them if I get my angles right like I did in this pic.
February 26, 2020
Hey! Alopecia update. I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that this isn’t going to heal on its own.
I think I’ve been in denial a bit. Fingers crossed. Hoping things would heal up by now.
Since it seems like I’m not making any progress by doing nothing. It’s now time to do something!
I’ve got a doctors appointment on Monday and will likely see a naturopath in the next few months.
My hair may never grow back but I’m going to at least give it a shot.
P.S. so happy that wigs are cute 😝