I struggle with staying fit.
It’s not something that I’ve ever been good at. Previous to now, my young body and natural daily movements kept me at a nice 115 lbs. I actually believed that I was just going to be skinny like that my whole life.
Enter a sedentary job and getting older. I mean, I’m only 28, for christ sake. But this 28 year old body is padding itself like it’s going out of style. At close to 160 lbs, it’s time to do something about it.
Except, I didn’t “feel” motivated.
I always imagined there was a sun-shining motivation that would inspire me one day to get up and *love* going to the gym. This golden moment would radically change how I viewed working out and would push me to start running or lifting or something.
That’s like thinking the money tree is going to suddenly start growing in my yard and I would be set for life.
Seems silly but that’s actually what I believed that. The motivation bit not the money tree bit.
So this past weekend, as I was perusing the internet (one of my favorite pastimes), I read something that just clicked.
If you are not healthy and fit, it’s because you’re lazy.
I am lazy.
Somehow, reading some strangers words on the screen connected me to the idea that I am being lazy about getting myself healthy and fit. It’s not a magically wonderful moment of motivation. It’s much simpler than that. I’m just being lazy.
I mean, if I think about it, on a good day, I work 6-8 hours. On a bad day, I work closer to 12. That leaves 12 other hours of non-working time to do something about my weight. Ok let’s say I sleep 8 hours. That’s 4 hours (on a bad day) that I usually spend watching tv to “unwind.” Psssst!
All I need to do is walk for 30 minutes and I’m doing my body a huge favor. All I need to do is eat more vegetables and my body will thank me.
It’s not complicated. I was just being lazy.
Now, I know there are those rare cases where someone physically cannot be healthy or fit and it’s not due to laziness. But those are rare. And I truly believe that most of us give ourselves the excuse that we are some exception to the rule.
I know for sure that I’m not an exception. I know for sure that if I wanted, I could be back at 115lbs.
But you know what, that’s not my goal. My goal is to be physically capable of walking 10,000 steps without feeling like I need a wheel chair after. (which is what happened the last time I went to a festival. I was sick too but still…)
My goal is to eat foods that energize me and not ones that make me want take some Tums after.
Overall, I just want to feel better.
Overall, I just want to stop being lazy.
Is this the reverse of motivation? Perhaps. Whatever the hell it is, it’s working!